Goodbyes, nobody ever really likes getting or giving goodbyes, but like everything else, it’s something that has to be done. The hardest goodbyes are those which aren’t said. Those are the type of goodbyes that mean the most and are usually final. Saying your goodbyes is the easy part, but having the meaning of it sink in is a whole different story.
Since the beginning of the year, it felt like the year of change. Yes of course this is what we say to ourselves at the beginning of each year, with our resolutions, goals, and promises that we have the strongest desire to keep, but end up not doing within the following months. But this year felt different. The changes felt long overdue. Like it was time to grow up. Time to finally move on and take on the responsibilities of life, being mature, and forgetting those that don’t matter. I visited school last month. The ole alma mater. Just a year ago, visiting the place felt entirely different from visiting it just last month. A friend and I thought it would have been a good idea to just go to school and visit like the old times. But when we got there, everything was different. It didn’t feel like our school anymore. It was like being lost in a place that I should have been familiar with. I didn’t know anyone anymore, our old professors have gone, and I just felt old. Like I wasn’t supposed to be there. It was then I realized that I didn’t miss school anymore. What I missed were the people I knew and the memories with them. This was a chapter of my life that had ended and it was time to move on.
Ooh, endings. Something that has been on my mind for quite a bit but I never really took the time to really just think about it. I “said” goodbye to friend recently. Said being in quotes since I really didn’t say anything, but only just decided to let the friend go. Why? Cause it felt like they didn't care anymore. This made me think of my relationships with people. There are those that weren’t meant to last and those that I strive to keep. Like your driver’s license, you have to spend time renewing the friendships you value. Say hi to people you care about once in a while. Argh, I feel like I’m rambling. I can’t compose my thoughts anymore so I’ll stop here.
To my friends, I miss you all. If only there was a way to have a day when we all didn’t have responsibilities, I’d wish for it and just spend a day with all of you. But I know we all have grown up, and we all have some more growing up to do. Just remember to say hi once in a while. And to all the people I used to care about. Have a great life. Wish we all could just start over. No, I don’t. Well just thank you, because of you all, I’ve learned to value those that I have left. For those that I would stop the world for, just so they’d know that I care.